The Soundtrack to My Life

Music is constantly running through my head (probably because I have my iPod hooked up a majority of the time…). Songs trigger memories like nothing else for me. The song Cecilia makes me think of my first car…a 1989 white Ford Escort hatchback. One of my friends would roll down (hand roll, this thing didn’t have power anything…except seatbelts (smart parents)) the windows, hang her head out, and bang on the side of the car while she loudly sang the words to the song – because, she said, that was the name of my car…even now that memory makes me laugh. The song Rambling Man makes me think of Beta Convention in high school. For some reason I can picture my friends sitting in the stands in the coliseum where the convention was held. We’re playing with a tennis ball and singing along to the song and laughing and being silly teenage girls. The song comes on and I think of my girlfriends and remember what a fun childhood I had. Dixieland Delight makes me think of college…it was the fraternity next door’s theme song of sorts…I learned it my freshman year and now that song makes me think of those guys and the parties I used to go to with them. Good memories.

I can also take almost any lyrics and relate them to my life. “Say what you need to say”….I don’t hold anything in. I think I need to let people know how I’m feeling…either about them or a situation or whatever. I don’t want to ever regret NOT saying something to someone I care about. People need to know how you feel. I like knowing how other people feel about me (well the nice/good thoughts anyway)… “I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all”…what do they say, “it’s better to have love and lost than to never have loved at all…”? Agreed. At least you know love exists…that there’s hope for the future. If you find love once, surely you can find it again? And even if you don’t find it again (still, find that extremely hard to believe), you did get to feel that feeling once.

I guess I’m a romantic – a lot of my favorite lyrics relate to love or the idea of love…”I fall so hard at the idea of you…”, “it’s not where but who you’re with that really matters”…I really believe that I can be anywhere as long as I’m with people I care about. After all it is “one sweet world…” and “Girls just wanna have fun”, right?

Busy Mind

There are so many things on my mind today…

Sometimes I wish I could be in charge of other people’s – my friends or just random people – minds. Like I feel like the answers are so obvious…it would be so easy for me to make decisions without the emotional attachment or bias or whatever. Unfortunately, I’m not in charge so I’ll just go with supporting my friends and thinking I-could-do-better thoughts about the randoms….(and those people can think the same thing about me too… :) ).

My little brother may buy the car that I have been longing after for the last two years or so. I am jealous. Very jealous.

Why do people brake when they see a police car on the other side on the interstate – and separated by a concrete wall? That aggravates the crap out of me. It happened on the way to work this morning. Dude…the police officer is NOT going to pull you over AND you’re going less than the speed limit already because we’re in a parking lot. Keep going! Oh, and another annoying thing (while I’m at it) – why do people push a button in the elevator when it’s already lit up? We’re going to stop on that floor….you don’t need to push it too. Unless you’re like 4 and REALLY like doing things for yourself, if the floor is already selected, we’re going to stop there. Finally (geez, guess I woke up on the wrong side of the bed), GRAMMAR. Holy cow, that one kills me. HAVE done, not have did. No, no, no. I have run the report already. NOT, I have ran the report already. That’s just incorrect. Past participles people…learn them, embrace them, use them!

OK, happy thoughts. I love music. Some songs seem to be just written for me. I can listen to a song on repeat for hours…in college my girlfriends made fun of me for that…”umm, someone REALLY likes the new Shania Twain CD…” hahaha…I didn’t even notice I was doing it.

Whew, glad I got all that out there…

Census

I filled out my Census form last night. I sat down to fill it out expecting it to take a good 15-20 minutes and it took 2. Why? Because I am a family of one (well that and the fact that I didn’t realize that the Census doesn’t really ask a lot of questions). Now, most days the fact that I’m single really doesn’t bother me one little bit (after all, I get to do whatever the hell I want with my money, time, and self), but sometimes it takes the Federal Government to point out that I am, in fact, alone. I mean, I have the cat, but she isn’t really good at talking back (wait, am I complaining?). I appreciate my independence, but I would also like a partner to do all those fun things I like to do with. It was so easy to meet people in college and then after college…where do they go? I don’t think the guys I’m looking for are at bars, but, I mean, I’m at the bar so why should I let that get in the way? Or do girls and guys think about meeting someone “out” differently? I think oh, nice guy, wonder if he’d like to get dinner…but does the guy think, oh, nice ass, wonder if she’s drunk enough to go home with me? And friends….it seems like your friends would be a good source of nice, non-ass-seeking men, but mine apparently are all out. So I guess that’s my question – where do you find guys after college?

Oh, and Happy 30th Birthday my little brother!

First Post

So I've already had my first accidental delete and I haven't even published one posting...such is life.

Anyway, I've spent alot of time lately reading random people's blogs and decided that I was probably ready to attempt writing my own blog. I have so many thoughts and opinions that I just need to get out for all the world to read. For now I'm going to write anonymously. I'm a Blogger Girl of Intrigue and Mystery. I'm not sure if I'll stay that way but I'd like to start out this way.

About me: 30ish professional girl who loves to travel (domestic & internation), play sports (softball, golf, skiing), listen to music (live or iPod), and have fun.